So, what's the deal with the site now?

 Just to name a few things:

- I've gotten back into gaming, and found some really neat RPGs that I want to talk about and make stuff for and so on. I had a whole other blog for that, but in retrospect that made very little sense. Most importantly, I am running my first attempt at a play-by-post game, which I may post some stuff about here.

- I am restarting my comics reading, as well as FINALLY diving into the six (!) pullboxes I won oh so long ago. I know there is some weird stuff in there.

- I am also trying to learn how to draw, so that I can envision my own ideas without having to take other people's work. I'm not jumping on deviantArt or anything, but you may see some pieces here or there.

- I am getting my action figure collection back to pre-robbery levels (check the archives for that story). I finally got a lot of the ones I missed while I was broke and miserable, and my Stikfas collection is growing strong. You will see some of them shortly.

Basically, I am digging deep for material here,  and hopefully I will have at least one or two interesting things on this blog.

I will still do the reviews and the celeb posts, seeing as how they are the only real viewbait I have right now. And I will be doing more updates and personal entries, if for nothing else than to get me in the habit of posting more often. I see no reason not to be upfront about it.

Well, that is all for now. I believe I have some RPG stuff in the pipe right now, and maybe a review or two. Really cool stuff. Can't wait for you to see it. But for now, gotta get back to work.

Later.

Break's over!

 

Hello again!

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. I made this big, emotional stink about "taking a break" from this site.

And yeah, I did stay away for...how long again?


OVER A YEAR?!?!?! How did I not go more insane?

Point is, at the time I wrote that, I wasn't in a good place. And I am trying to be more honest with myself and others when it comes to my feelings. So I stopped away, just recuperating and working through the stress and feelings that had walloped me so hard. Now, I am in a much better place, physically and mentally, and I have the desire to write again.

As you can see, I have been fiddling with the site layout and color scheme, trying to find something a bit more eye-catching and yet easy to read. I don't want to burn your eyes out of your head. At least, not yet. I do want feedback on that, if you would.

As for the whole "nobody's reading this" deal, I...was wrong. True, most of my hits come from people looking for that Layla El post I made a while back, or the Celeb Scandal posts (which I may want to consider resurrecting).  But I was mainly wrong in that being a bad thing. I have stuff I want to share, but I don't know how to do so. I have not been blogging long, and really, I don't know why I thought I would magically develop an audience without putting the work in. And let's be honest, this is hardly my best work. Sure, there are pieces I am proud of here, but that doesn't mean I don't think they could have been better.

Tl:dr; I am back. I am going to make a real go at it this time around, and I am not going to limit nor criticize myself too much. Even if nobody reads this, I will know it's here, for my own sake and, let's be honest, quite questionable mental health.

It is going to be a painful, difficult mess of a ride. Hope you are as excited as I am.

-V

Updates Ahoy!

So for those of you still keeping up with me and the blog, I am going to be trying some new things over the coming weeks. Hopefully I will not fall on my face with them.

One is an epic surprise that, once seen, a lot of you familiar with my past antics are gonna wonder why I didn't do it sooner.

So stay tuned!

Updates since last I wrote - January 2013

Wow, I was feeling such a pity party in that last post, I forgot to actually wirte about stuff that matters.

- Like I said, I am signed up for Cannonball Read 5: The Quest for More Stress. Once again, I am semi-cheating by rereading the books I didn't write reveiws for last time, to cut down on reading time and see if there was stuff I missed. Then agian, apprently they are taking graphic novels now, so there may be hope.

- Got a new job, that so far is pretty great. Work is interesting, pays good, and the folks are nice. Kinda wish I could work somewhere without interoffice drama, but I suppose that is a fantasy. Gotta say, it is nice having my own health insurance now. I feel almost grown up!

- Speaking of which, turned 30 this past December. When you fail to die before you get old, what happens?

- Got another car, worked for a while. I actually got to drive it for a longer period of time than it has been in the shop, which is a big step up from my previous vehicle. And it looks like the proble now may not break my wallet! So, huzzahs all around for that!

- I have been going out socially more, thoug no dates as of yet. I have discovered my mutant power is somehow only being attracted to women already in relationships. Either that or my taste in women is so good they are already taken. Let's go with the latter.

Huh, better get back to work. But I'll be back later with my first CBR5 review. I do hope you'll enjoy it.

State of the Blog Address - January 2013

When am I going to freaking learn?

*sigh*

Yep. Doing it again. Signed up for yet another Cannonball Read, I resolved to actually start writing more on the blog, so on and so forth.

I don't know. People make a big stink about getting your stuff out there. But it really isn't easy, is it? You hear the same old tune "You've got something to say, then say it!" But reality doesn't work that way.

We don't simply say stuff to say it. We say stuff you hear someone say something back. We don't want monologue. We want conversation., We want reaction. I want reaction.

I want people to agree, disagree, support, challenge, blantantly rip off, acknowledge, disregard, question, answer, and basically take every word I put here and take out all their love anf rustrations on them. I want feedback. I want...something.

But I'm not going to get it. Face it, this blog could disappear as I'm typing this, and nobody would care. Hell it has been inert for a year and nobody cared. Not even me.

But I do come back. Again and again, for something I know isn't there. Just to hear my own voice, read my own words. Marvel at it. The utter pointlessness of it.

I shouldn't let the silence get to me. i should keep writing regardless of the lack of comments or links or attention. That's what the old wisdom says. But I can't. It defeats the whole purpose of doing this. Pretending like it doesn't get to me is bullshit. It does. It always did. And it always will.

If someone does read this, and you manage to not be a spambot scanning to see what words you can link to  whatever weirdly specific dating site you are working for, thanks. Thanks for reading. For considering. For engaging me for the little time it took. I do appreicaite it.

State of the Blog Address - January 2012

Well, another year is upon us, and my writing haunches are tingling again. Normally a little prune juice would take care of that, but not this time. Nope, it seems more drastic measures must be taken.

So I am once again dusting off the cobwebs and making use of my Google account. So let's see: what could I possibly put here now?

Well for one, I signed up for Cannonball Read again. Number Four this time. I had no trouble reading the books, it was the reviews that got me. Will I try video again, or will I stick to text? At this point, I don't know. I still want to try something a bit more attention grabbing, and a bit less dependent on my typo-riddling fingers. We shall see how the winds of fate take us.

As far as anything else, I am simply taking it one step at a time. Feeling myself out. If you wish to join me in feeling myself, otu or otherwise, you are welcome to come along.

My First YouTube Video: Southern Fried Bacon

Here is my first actual uploaded video EVARRRR. If you like it, i do plan on doing mroe vlog-style posts in the immediate future.

Southern Fried Bacon Day 1 from Claude Weaver on Vimeo.

Oh it makes me weep at how bad it is.

Still Kicking...

Sorry for the lack of updates. Been hit with a mind-numbing case of larygitis, with a stuffed nose chaser.

I barely have the dtrength to put this up. But hey, it is something.

Also, I am still putting my new computer through it's paces. So far, so good. I might even be able to run Dragon Age on this thing. If that happens, then this blog is a goner.

Harder Than Looks

Well, second day, second post.

Annnnnnddddd....nuthin'.

It doesn't help that my laptop (which has all my first drafts and such) is crapping out on me faster and faster. I have another one lined up in my sights, but I just don't have the money (and if the state government has any say, I won't have it anytime soon).

Arrrrgh.

Hopefully i can at least get the first of my CR# book reviews out this week. But I may end up having to revise my whole "post a day" goal, at least until I get a more reliable machine.

Damn. Damn it all.