Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. I made this big, emotional stink about "taking a break" from this site.
And yeah, I did stay away for...how long again?
OVER A YEAR?!?!?! How did I not go
Point is, at the time I wrote that, I wasn't in a good place. And I am trying to be more honest with myself and others when it comes to my feelings. So I stopped away, just recuperating and working through the stress and feelings that had walloped me so hard. Now, I am in a much better place, physically and mentally, and I have the desire to write again.
As you can see, I have been fiddling with the site layout and color scheme, trying to find something a bit more eye-catching and yet easy to read. I don't want to burn your eyes out of your head. At least, not yet. I do want feedback on that, if you would.
As for the whole "nobody's reading this" deal, I...was wrong. True, most of my hits come from people looking for that Layla El post I made a while back, or the Celeb Scandal posts (which I may want to consider resurrecting). But I was mainly wrong in that being a bad thing. I have stuff I want to share, but I don't know how to do so. I have not been blogging long, and really, I don't know why I thought I would magically develop an audience without putting the work in. And let's be honest, this is hardly my best work. Sure, there are pieces I am proud of here, but that doesn't mean I don't think they could have been better.
Tl:dr; I am back. I am going to make a real go at it this time around, and I am not going to limit nor criticize myself too much. Even if nobody reads this, I will know it's here, for my own sake and, let's be honest, quite questionable mental health.
It is going to be a painful, difficult mess of a ride. Hope you are as excited as I am.