Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Break's over!


Hello again!

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. I made this big, emotional stink about "taking a break" from this site.

And yeah, I did stay away for...how long again?

OVER A YEAR?!?!?! How did I not go more insane?

Point is, at the time I wrote that, I wasn't in a good place. And I am trying to be more honest with myself and others when it comes to my feelings. So I stopped away, just recuperating and working through the stress and feelings that had walloped me so hard. Now, I am in a much better place, physically and mentally, and I have the desire to write again.

As you can see, I have been fiddling with the site layout and color scheme, trying to find something a bit more eye-catching and yet easy to read. I don't want to burn your eyes out of your head. At least, not yet. I do want feedback on that, if you would.

As for the whole "nobody's reading this" deal, I...was wrong. True, most of my hits come from people looking for that Layla El post I made a while back, or the Celeb Scandal posts (which I may want to consider resurrecting).  But I was mainly wrong in that being a bad thing. I have stuff I want to share, but I don't know how to do so. I have not been blogging long, and really, I don't know why I thought I would magically develop an audience without putting the work in. And let's be honest, this is hardly my best work. Sure, there are pieces I am proud of here, but that doesn't mean I don't think they could have been better.

Tl:dr; I am back. I am going to make a real go at it this time around, and I am not going to limit nor criticize myself too much. Even if nobody reads this, I will know it's here, for my own sake and, let's be honest, quite questionable mental health.

It is going to be a painful, difficult mess of a ride. Hope you are as excited as I am.


Monday, May 06, 2013

Taking another break....

Hey, there, audience.

I'm just writing this to say that I'm going to let this site go quiet for a while. I know, I know, I've done it before without saying a word, why do so now, blah blah blah.

I am really doing this for me. Because to be quite honest, that's all it has ever been: me rambling to myself. I am the only constant here, so I need to tell myself I am not going to write anymore. I know it sounds weird, but you creative types out there know what I mean. There is nothing more devastating to a wannabe writer than a blank page. And that is all this has been. A repeated torture session of blank pages.

I really don't have any reason or motivation to continue. I can't make up my mind what I want this site to be. I can't  even decide how I want to write a freaking book review, for crap's sake. There isn't any real demand for my two cents, except that which I create for myself. And despite this, I still beat myself up for not doing anything, simply because I think I must. And I can't do that anymore.

I'm tired, guys. I'm tired of trying, of forcing myself to do something I get nothing out of. So I am consciously and willingly shutting off. No promises to update, no affirmations of "just write" or any of those stupid platitudes. No shame at seeing another empty page. 

I've got nothing interesting to say. About anything. And it's time I realized it.

Friday, May 03, 2013

Superheroes, White Male Gaze And Colorblind Casting

Just a quick post while this is still on my mind.

So, if you travel in the same geeky circles I do on the web, chances are you heard the rumors about Michael B Jordan (The Wire, Chronicle) being considered for the role of Johnny Storm/The Human Torch in an upcoming Fantastic Four reboot.

Courtesy of Comic Book Resources Facebook Page

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